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Anne’s Sex Diary (Part 1)

April 17, 2009 in Sex Diary, Wordsmoker Short Fiction

(for reference/context: Victoria’s Sex Diary Part 1 and Part 2)

8:30 a.m.: Victoria’s still sleeping. Her black hair masks her face in tendrils like a seaweed veil. You’d think it would tickle her and she’d brush it away, even in her sleep, but apparently she’s too far under. I use my little finger to gently pull it away, tendril by tendril; I enjoy watching her face emerge, as if coming into focus. Her skin is such translucent, porcelain white, her hair so dark against it – nothing like my fine blonde floss and the boiled-pink cabbage rose it frames. I’m not sure why I’m already awake, but I decide to try to make the best of it, and the best of these moments before she wakes up and busies herself with leaving. I luxuriate in laying the whole length of my body against hers, smoothing my lumpy imperfections into a seam joining us like panels in a floor: dovetailed. Or, wait….there’s another word for that. I gently nestle my face into the nest of hair at her nape and my hand into the nest of hair between her legs, squirming against her body in order to feel the pleasure of coming to rest against her again. She turns toward me, eyelids fluttering slightly, and some of my fingers slip almost inadvertently into her as she does. Oh, now I remember. Tongue-and-groove. Good Morning, You. I can’t remember now which one of us said that.
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Victoria’s Sex Diary (Part 2)

March 17, 2009 in Sex Diary, Wordsmoker Short Fiction

1409286084_52f1c06968Noon: Have you read this article? It’s diabolical! Elise slapped it down on the little table we were sharing in this dingy, off-campus coffee shop. We were here because Elise didn’t want to be seen. I glanced down at the photocopied bundle that had nearly knocked over my gritty iced espresso. Oh right, that one. “Adultery,” by Laura Kipnis. I strove to be sympathetic when I spoke. Oh, Elise, Why Are You Torturing Yourself Like This? I Thought You Decided To Just Focus On The Text In Your Ulysses Class This Year, No Articles. I know, and I have, but I just can’t get this thing out of my head, I needed to exorcize it by talking about it. Besides, isn’t this what Molly’s monologue is all about? I feel like I need to confront it head-on, get it all on the table, try to defend fidelity, you know? How is this not literature and theory being deployed in the name of selfishness, of heedless disregard for responsibility, for other people’s feelings, for a privileging of fleeting bliss over lasting bonds? You know, Buddhists say that—What Has Barry Done To You Now, Lise? I cut in, desperate to avoid the cavalcade of New Age bullshit that was about spill from her mouth along with her wicked coffee breath. And Anyway, You Can’t Let Some Bitch Who Got Famous Bragging About How Preferring Hustler Over Playboy Makes Her Some Kind Of Working-Class Hero Get You Down. But this last was probably said in vain, because Elise had started to cry. Good lord, that bastard did something else? He’d already left her for that sanctimonious moral philosopher, he’d already sued for custody of their kid, he’d already spread rumors that she was frigid, maybe even a lesbian – one of the reasons we were meeting here in this crappy café with its chipping tables and rickety chairs was because she couldn’t risk being seen with me, an idea that I found pretty insulting as I sat there across from her overwhelming dowdiness. But as loathsome as I found her ex and his Kant-y paramour, it was hard to sympathize with her new crusade against cheating in all its forms, her insistence on putting one’s partner’s needs over one’s own, on devaluing pleasure and overvaluing security and structure. And it was hard to ignore the lingering memory my fingers held of the fleeting pleasures they’d encountered the previous night, the supple folds and satiny surfaces, the secret curls and tufts, the slippery scent of their moistening. Read the rest of this entry →

Victoria’s Sex Diary (Part 1)

February 24, 2009 in Sex Diary, Wordsmoker Short Fiction

white-rose8:30 a.m.: I’d always thought it would be my dream to wake up with a woman’s fingers already inside me, the smooth back of her hand rocking gently against my clit as her lips brushed against my neck. I’d always thought it would be bliss to roll over out of my sleep and into such warmth, one form of dreaming bleeding into this other as our bodies ran like adjacent watercolor washes, soaking the sheets. But to tell the truth, when I found myself suddenly in the midst of this fantasy made real, an unexpected resentment bubbled up as I rolled into Anne’s embrace, an initial resistance that I had to fight down like a stifled yawn as I nuzzled her to signal my return to consciousness. Good Morning, You. I can’t remember now which one of us said that. We ended up shuddering a good bit as we rolled over each other in our deliciously impossible attempts to enfold and be enfolded simultaneously, but neither of us wanted to exert the effort necessary to come. I finally just picked an arbitrary point at which to declare the tumble over, covering Anne’s mouth with mine, my lips brushing hers as I murmured, Girl, I Gotta Get Up.
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Jenny’s Sex Diary, Part Ten

February 11, 2009 in Lust, Sex Diary

In which we say goodbye to Jenny and the details of her life…
Seattle, Washington
Friday, January 16

8:15 am: All my projects have been handed over. Going over the Hanforth account with Collin was dreadful. He said nothing the entire time. Didn’t nod or concede that he was even listening. Just sat there, leaning over, his elbows on his knees, hands clasped, either looking at me or at the things on the desk. There’s a little party later with cake. Everyone in the office now knows Michelle hates me because on Wednesday after the announcement of my departure and the talk of a Friday party, Albert said, “Michelle, you should get the cake,” and Michelle said, “No.” There was this horrible silence in the conference room with everyone looking at everyone else and Michelle staring Albert down. I thought Collin might offer to get it but he didn’t. Or Hanna. Albert said, “I can get it. That’s fine. I’ll get it. Okay then.” I just have my office to pack, the cake to eat, goodbyes to say, then I can go home. Read the rest of this entry →

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Jenny’s Sex Diary, Part Eight (possibly NSFW)

January 25, 2009 in Lust, Sex Diary

In which Jenny tells us the details of her life…
Seattle, Washington
Sunday, January 11

11:00 am: My husband’s drinking coffee while standing in the middle of the kitchen, telling me about his trip as I cook eggs at the stove when my cell rings. It’s The Sweet Spot reminding me of my appointment. I ask if I can change the services, get just the bikini instead of the extended. Of course. My husband asks what’s the difference. I explain and add, “It’s not like there’s a party going on down there.” He says, “I wanted to party down there last night.” “It’ll still be cleaned up. Don’t worry.” It’s not just that there’s more pain involved in the extended, but it’s really that not only does she see my stuff when she takes more hair off, but she also touches my stuff. With gloves on, but still.  He says, “I can party down there every night, Honey.” “You’ll still like it,” I say.” He says, “I like it the way it’s been. It’s very pretty.” I shake my head and look away. “Am I embarrassing you?” The boys run in, tackle their father. Talk between us, over us, holler and attack. We are unable to have any sort of conversation. Read the rest of this entry →

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Jenny’s Sex Diary, Part Six (possibly NSFW)

January 14, 2009 in Lust, Sex Diary


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In which Jenny tells us the details of her life…
Seattle, Washington
Wednesday, January 7

10:55 am: Bike messenger arrives, hands me a white 9” x 12” envelope. There are two letters inside, one from Jeremy, one from Andrew Hanforth, and the catalog. The letter from Jeremy is an apology for his behavior. He’s sorry he “misunderstood the chain-of-command.” Which is bullshit because I told him what this chain was at least five times. I click through my email just to see in general how many I sent him. This is a guy I’m not even supposed to be dealing with. The letter from Andrew is apologetic and nasty at the same time. I read the letter three times, trying to figure out how he mastered this combination. Read the rest of this entry →

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Jenny’s Sex Diary, Part Five (possibly NSFW)

January 8, 2009 in Lust, Sex Diary



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In which Jenny tells us the details of her life…
Seattle, Washington
Tuesday, January 6

10:45 am: My arms are loaded with my bag, purse, too much dry cleaning. I keep stepping on the plastic covering dragging on the floor. Collin, Michelle, John, and Hannah are sitting on the couches in the middle of the room talking, passing papers across the coffee table. Collin stands, takes the dry cleaning from me and my work bag, walks with me to my office. He drapes the dry cleaning over the chair, puts my bag on my desk. “Jeans,” he says. “Let me see. Turn around.” I hold my purse in front of me and shake my head. He says, “Please.” I set my bag down, turn around for him. “Okay?” “Okay,” he says and leaves. I don’t understand him. I close the door, take the gray long skirt off its hanger, put it on over my jeans, take my jeans off. We have a dress code. No jeans ever. As John has said, “We are indeed casual, just not that kind of casual.” Read the rest of this entry →

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Jenny’s Sex Diary, Part Four

January 6, 2009 in Jenny's Sex Diary

from filelibrary.myaasite.comIn which Jenny tells us the details of her life…
Seattle, Washington
Monday, January 5

9:45 am: I’m sitting in my car in the parking lot of my office building. I check my cellphone for messages. I take a deep breath. I haven’t spoken to Collin. I haven’t tried to contact him. But I thought he would contact me. My life feels like it’s been bludgeoned open. I gather my things, get out of my car, walk to the elevators, walk back to my car, put all my things back in and sit there. Read the rest of this entry →

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Jenny’s Sex Diary, Part Three (possibly NSFW)

January 5, 2009 in Jenny's Sex Diary

In which Jenny tells us the details of her life…
Seattle, Washington
Monday, December 29

9:35 am: Just arrived. I didn’t realize how much time it would take to do all my morning things and the kids. I haven’t showered. This means I will need to wake up an hour earlier than I did this morning. I don’t see how that is possible. I am also out of clean clothes.

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