Dispatch (No.1)
July 15, 2010 in Personal
I am standing naked in front of the full length mirror near the entrance of my hotel room. I am listening to Jazz. Bill Evans on the piano. The lighting is dim in my hotel room.
I like it that way.
I learned my appreciation for dim lighting and low-level light sources such as table lamps from my grandparents, whose home was always dimly lit as far back as I can remember.
I’ve started therapy again, with a nice woman on a sliding scale. After an attack on my emotional state aided and abetted by medication roulette, I’m back down to just one anti-depressant, at a dose that makes doctors raise their eyebrows just a tad. And I’m still making it to the gym at least a few times a week. I’m doing all the things you’re supposed to do, so why is it that when my therapist asked me the other week to talk about the most recent time I was happy, I couldn’t think of one?
I have finally come out of a deep, dark, nasty smelling pile of depression. Each time I go through one of these spells, which can last from a couple of days to a couple of months, I generally get the same questions while I am in the depression. The questions I am asked are annoying to say the least, and for anyone who has experienced depression of any kind, (situational or clinical–I suffer from the latter, and sometimes the former) I am sure that you can relate to how much it sucks to have to answer these questions over and over again.
A friend of the Spys family, Mr. Partridge, owns a vineyard; it has been in the Partridge family for many years. During prohibition, this law-abiding family sold grape juice instead of wine. Indeed, the family did a booming business during this era. Perhaps it was because with each bottle of grape juice, the Partridge Family Vintners included a little public service flyer: explicit instructions on how to prevent the juice from fermenting. Should one do the opposite of the stated directions, the grape juice surely becomes wine. Along those lines…
Please welcome the latest Wordsmoker – “I’m A Bottle”. Amongst other things, I’m A Bottle will be acting as our very own critic of food critics, which I believe has a delicious logical loop, if not a spicy after-taste of nonsense coupled with the lingering essence of sweet anger. Over to you, I’m A Bottle…